It seemed to consume my life.
What is it? It is engineering. mechanical engineering, to be precise.
A part of me wanted to run off MNIT jaipur, leave engineering, do something I really loved to do.
The other wanted a balance (read sacrifice) between things; after all I had to respect my own decision, no matter how woefully regrettable.
In the first 3 years here, the first part dominated; with little success though, irrevocably ruining my academic performance.
Fourth year brought hopes of a free ride. I am in 'final year' after all; and the baap - rather grand or even grand grand baap - for all juniors. Academic torture was assumed to have a hard landing.
Meanwhile, the mechanical engineering department had other plans. Come 23rd july and all hell broke loose and continues to do so with full vigour, till date. The implications were overwhelming. With all this, MNIT jaipur did seem to consume my life. The deliberate shunning of social life, the locking-myself-up symptoms, the helpless body language - you name it.
The other part seemed helpless, crushed badly inside me. This one wanted a balance, wanted to show the path out, even as I consciously stunted its voice.
Of late, the other part seems to be coming to the fore.
-Sumeet Seth (sumeets29@gmail.com)
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